I have a stack of information about different schools, scholarship opportunities and programs sitting on my desk.

I do not want to go through that pile. I do not want to have to make a choice about where to go to school for next year.

I don't want to leave home, but I want the experience of leaving home and being on my own for awhile.

I don't want to leave the people and a city that I love, but I don't want those things to hold me back either.

The only thing that I am sure of right now is that I want to study in French. Then, of course, comes the inevitable question: Where do I want to study in French?

It's a vicious cycle.