I am at a loss.

I don't know where to go from here. I wish that I could control time: Rewind- realise what we have and not ruin it because of petty insecurities and issues; Fast forward- see how things turn out after it's all said and done; Pause...pause, and try to work all the way through. Feel closer to you than I ever have, and embrace that feeling, hold it close even though it hurts when I hold it that close.

I just don't know what to do. I feel terrible.