I have to get myself out of this rut. I don't know what's wrong with me. Scratch that. I know exactly what is wrong with me; I'm so afraid of failing that I won't even give it a fair shot, so that when I inevitably fail because I haven't tried my best, I can say that it's ok, because I know that I can do better. I know that I can do better because I'm too fricking scared to try. Why is that? It's like I'm subconsciously trying to sabotage myself, when all I want to do is succeed.

Why am I so afraid of putting myself out there in the world?